#like there's loads of ppl who do it better and I know that shouldn't stop me but I guess it still does

[sanerontheinside]

5&13!!

5. Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?

I owe the remaining chapters of my QuiObi Big Bang for 2023, Notorious and also a fic that was only just revealed, but shh. That was is pretty high up on the list to complete, as I kinda burnt out while writing it but had a little buffer I never got around to posting. So in continuing the tradition from qobb2022, I will be working very hard to finish that one as soon as I can.

whether it will actually be finished first or not—your guess is as good as mine. it's pretty intricate and I just took at least month off for burnout. but! for the moment, I can do better than a snippet, and will be posting a completed chapter. I think. god this headache is abitch

13. Aside from fanfic, are there any other fan works you’d like to try creating? Fanart, or fanvids, gifsets, or podfic? 

hmmmmm.... see, I dunno. maybe manips and moodboards and photosets, but not so much gifsts or fanvids. pod fic - i genuinely don't understand how people read things out loud, my mouth dries 3 minutes in how are y'all doing thissss

[radaverse]

Ok so about recent PT community issues?

I see people are talking about experiences with somebody, now I'm aware of all the issues. Unfortunately I'm also involved so I think I gotta talk too

Storytime:

So yk my server right? Where we hang out and I post pizza tower au and samurai jack au comic stuff

Some time ago there was this friend and mod, they were nice and modded well ig (were really active)

I found out two things: 1) they're older than average age range in server and 2) they also had some emotional instability. I didn't mind much both since 1) nothing wrong with that and 2) happens really often.

But user sometimes vented in public chat, we told them not to since it killed moods. Apologized but they kinda kept doing it

I also heard they vented in dms to some ppl (myself too), sometimes I would talk to them about all that since they were modding and mods more than anyone else (besides owner) have to make sure the server's calm. Also ended with apology but then doing again and it got a little frustrating for everyone

Went to a point we had to demod them, but it all stayed kinda normal after that

Until recent days

I realized they were also doing this in other servers and to many other people. got blocked by friends and talked to me about it. I told them to reflect on what they were being told by those friends.

But they had a meltdown and vented to many people in my server, many got worried

We have to remember that still most of those are way younger and can't take those loads of pain from someone else so often, and or can't give any pro level advice cuz they're kinda kids still? Also some were minors, even worse. Actual kids shouldn't be dealing with those things.

Things got a bit chaotic and many ppl spoke about having similar issues, I didn't know it was THAT bad. It happened to many people

So for everyone's greater good including theirs they had to take some distance from the server and communities in general to focus on taking care of themselves and so the server is calm again

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Ok so

If you're a member of my server: I want to apologize for letting this happen and dealing with it for so long, to everyone who got bothered or distressed by all this. I should've stopped it all earlier. I was being a bit too compassionate when dealing with things and hadn't seen the full extent of everything

But I also remember I can't blame myself for everything since there's no way any of us could've known. So I'm more calm about it. It's nobody's fault

I'll do my best to avoid stuff like this happening in the future and choose mods more carefully. I'll also be more straightforward when dealing with people like this when necessary

If you're the user in question: Please be aware that I don't hate you, wish anything bad for you or anything. Quite the opposite. I want you to feel better and recover, and get a brighter view of yourself.

But in order to do that you need to stop contacting people online about this, none of them are qualified for dealing with such things and if they're way younger they can't support you emotionally as a irl, same aged person can.

Don't lose hope in yourself. You can do this, you can change for the better and become someone you'll admire. To do that you have to take the first step. Get out of your comfort zone and reach out to someone who can and will help you. It'll all be way better then. Best wishes for you

So that's pretty much it. Thanks for listening to me! I don't usually post stuff like this but I think it's important I said something about it. Love y'all!